She said: Don't You Wish You Were Dead Like Me?

Sometimes I ask myself why do I play this game?
I can claim it is all in his name,
I can sing Worship and pretend I am receiving a gift.
Sometimes I ask myself what will happen if I lose this game?
I can believe that I will only lose only what I bet,
I know that I am building a far greater debt.
Sometimes I ask myself is it possible to win this game?



What I do know that making a stand and knowing that loss is inevitable is a far better option than not standing at all.
As decreed by the Lord those who risk all will receive everything. But those who risk nothing will end up with less than they started with.

Midna All Grown Up

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Although almost everything on here is original I have found something you might like.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jxLaM_hnUf4

Two steps Forward, one step Back.

Faith is a funny thing.
Without i can't imagine what life would be like.
Yes I experienced life before but then I was without knowledge.

Two people ave seemingly lost their faith since this blog was last updated.
One of these people have blamed me for their loss of faith.
In response I feel somewhat apathetic.
It is not for me to tell these people what they should and shouldn't do.
Their faith is their faith no one else's between them and the Lord.

I am not the saviour.


Yet in a personal level I feel stronger than ever within my own faith. Granted I may understand less than I ever have before, the truth always finds a way, his way.


Love Jesus


Oh one more thing,
Smile and mean it :)


You can't run forever.

More Tests?

That's it I want to say I've had enough.
God may want me, but seemingly there are people who are not happy with that.
Why should I not jump down in to the Devils loving arms, and leave the rest of them to God?
What is stopping me is that my Savouior allowed me to feel love.
I do not want to turn back on that love.
I still feel the need to have a focal point for my rage, will my Lord stop me from killing an innocent child?

To my Vampyre, I will not hide, We have done no wrong neither legaly or moraley. I have asked for protection and even as I type this I feel his power. Yet I have to decide am I a Disciple or just a christian?
Do I go within the public gaze of St.Peters and the tormentor, or do I stay within the confinds of my room and that which is north of the river?

If I am a Disciple I will stand strong to my belief, and leave everything knowing that they are safe in his hands. Itseems that currently unless you seek me that even standing strong, means only being able to see you for an hour each week.

Erin Go Bragh

Not sure what the title means, saw it on a banner coming in this morning.

Much calmer now, the way i should be.
Unable to flinch at decpetion, without my own awareness.
Grace is given, nothing to be repaid, as i type i feel his power displayed.

It may seem dark now, but you can come through, stand on your own two feet,
Do not be held back for you are true.

Wierd, now I feel strong.

Last night while alone, I felt the spirit around me. Not as intense as it has been , but enough to know He's there.

I will still talk to you my love, but for now we must at least seem to be apart, if you read this tomorrow morning expect to see me in the afternoon.

Down on my knees,
Blood dripping down my face.
Unable to stand,
Not through lack of strength may be you might be able to understand.
If I rose now they would see,
But first they need to trust in me.

That's it I quit.

Ok not sure what to write now after reading the three days of Jeff Lucas' Close Encounters.
Truth is I'm lost.

I did what others asked and said I wouldn't see my Vampyre.
Afterwards I am then asked by those same people to help her family.
I did this.

Still i didn't see her. Yet I now have "Authorities" warning me to stay away from the one I was told by the Lord that I would love, the only one.

So I do they ask and not see her, now she cuts herself again and no one cares enough to help.

Dear Lord did you only open my eyes so that I could see how pointless your people are, for there is no helping them, let them fry for i can no longer cry.
Sorry my Lord for I already knew that there was little hope for the people on this planet, was it really worth proving it to me?
Amen.


So I do I jump or just bleed?

Am I crazy?

I thourght that following the way of the world was something christians were supposed to give up, and follow the way of God. Now the ways of the world differ depending on the law of the land, and this influnces what we consider appropriate.

Having a vicar lecture you for an hour on something you never would of done if you hadn't become a christian is more than a little disheartening.

For the Lord I am thankful,
yet no one notices.
I am still filled with hope a never ending ambition,
yet no one wants to trust.
I see the silver lining,
but what is the point if no one tells the truth.
Down on my knees I pray I cry,
untill the tears of blood run dry.
I am still here,
unsure why.


Sorry, feeling sombre.