And Lo the Lord answers all prayers...

For the Lord I am grateful, Mercy never ending.
Gifts are giving, and paitience is a hard learned virtue.
There is a time to stand and a time to listen, Lead and they will follow

Amen

And through the blizzard I still struggle.

Dear Lord please allow these words to be read as any as possible.

The blizzard is hard to navigate, sometimes we need to rest. I'm not always good and taking simple advice, taking shelter sometime appears weak. After all I live a life of Grace why should I be entitled to shelter? Yet ignoring the warmth I got lost in the blizzard and upset those around me. Only hours earlier I was searching in the cold and rain for someone I knew was in need, yet still I had no compassion for those in a position that seemed less desperate. I was an ass. I upset my children for the sake of my own restlessness.
The Lord showed me that this was a way I have been living for many years, it does not happen often may be once a year, yet still it is wrong, and I now see how I have been.

For the Lord teaches and forgives Amen.

Working for the Lord

The Lord intended for us to work and play. Yet billions of us do neither correctly.
If your "job" lowers your esteem makes you feel depressed, stressed and pushes you to abuse your family, you are certainly not working as God intended you to. Gods intention for work was us to help each other. Not to be part of industries which exist solely to create economy. He did not intend for us to be miserable, to allow ourselves to be miserable for the sake of ideology is a sin. To ignore our brothers and sisters plight and to allow them to suffer in a miserable existence is also sin. Work for each other and we will work for God, work for the economy, the state and bizarre ideology and you work with sin, you work for Satan.

When it comes to Play, God intended us to enjoy ourselves, entertainment is not a sin (although that does not mean that it is impossible for some to enjoy sin as entertainment). gods intentions for us to entertain each other, to this end inventions such as the printing press, the stage and the world wide web were made possible by God. Yet that does not mean that all is well for those who sit down doing nothing but staring feeling lack of complete emotion.
To be blunt if you find yourself miserable when relaxing your a committing a sin, God did not intend for you to depress yourself. He gave us all the ability to to be happy and feel valid, he is in you and all around you, if the television bores you, simply don't watch it. If your greatest thrill is to run, then run if it is to compete, compete, as long as your actions do not harm others there is no sin involved. But remember everything available to us is available for the use of sin, be aware of exploitation for once you except your own exploitation it is far easier for sin to be used through you and as such love will be removed.

The Lord did not intend for us to pay for our enjoyment. True enjoyment comes from serving the Lord and in that we will bring others closer to him, and is then we can be entertained.

Beware the State and it's economy it thrives on your guilt, yet with the Lord there is no Guilt, if you do right by him no matter what others say you will have no guilt.
Please remmber self punsihment is a sin, and to comit sin is self punishment, guilt is the tool of the devil to make you harm yourself and those around you.


Thank you my Saviour.

Amen

Breaking away from the circle...

I have no idea if anyone reads this , if you do please leave a comment tell me how you feel let God speak through you.

I did what he wanted took first steps in to walking through that visible barrier. I told my house group about the relationship with my love my Soul mate my gift from the Lord, she is all these things and more. I trust the Lord he has sent me to these people he has given me a charge and I defend as I have been instructed, but right now I do not think that they bielive that I am following the lords word.

Lord your way is all

Amen

Without Prejudice...

Is it possible to find a church without it?
It would be a church without fear...

Maybe one day.


Amen.

Ring around the roses...

Strangely we all follow circles. My own life feels like it could just repeat over and over the same events each year. Learn from the Lord has shown me yet still an unknown fear.
Breaking societys circle is hard, the ideology is what allowed you to feel a form of acceptence even in church. If you are not part of that circle who are you?
Yet society has to break out of it's own circle. The economic crisis would be no more if faith in My Savoiur our Lord was paramount.

So what to do?

Grace and the Devil

Last Sunday the revelation of Grace came and I sat humbled with joy. For although I had been treating others justly God still treated me with Grace. I immediately cancelled all debts owed to me and thanked the Lord my Savior. Since that moment the Devil has been goading me. Somewhat humorously. I have been locked out of my home, had a brand new laptop melt and been facing financial desperation as well as feeling untrusted by loved ones. I have not reacted to him and the Lords plan continues.


Amen. For all of the world I continue to pray.

all that is..

God sees what there is to see,
Hears what there is to hear,
Knowing all and calming fires,
Lighting though the mist, loud filled minds.
The time is now to open the hearts
Dear Lord pass these words through me,
Prayer was jumbled no words to come out, but I know you see the true me.

To all of you Amen.

Through the Fire and the Flames.

Faith is a rather odd element,
it mixes sacrifice and sacrament.
Never knowing what tomorrow will bring
but always feeling it leads you to where the bell rings...

Amen, Amen I can see again.
Gone is the smoke, gone is the steam,
anger quenched, no more ruptured spleen.


A little random it seems but I 've learnt that blind faith is heavy going, the slightest hint of doubt and it seems like this new life may come crashing down. I will one day record all that has happened if the Lord so wishes it but for now , I pray and thank all who is hee, and pray for thaose who are not, and in the name of christ give them my blessings.

Oh Lord...

Spirit in me,
can not take away the past
Need to sort this out fast,
Step out the boat, not sure if I was ever at peace while in the boat.

You send the spirit, I know what you teach, without you the sickness returns, you know all and I have faith in you and in others, yet it seems it is only I without haste.

Please forgive me.

Amen.

I thank you Lord for all that is done,
you build a pillar strength and let it stand,
I am yours to command.

Amen.

God Help Me.

So I found out why I was there and then I was kicked out?

Lord your humour is wicked.

I have been angry at myself yet still kept faith I have felt desperate but still believed,
Then when i type the logic is clear. Please forgive my impatience, my frustration, for in you all is revealed.

Amen

One Pray answered...

Another asked.

I now find myself called to witness, speaking to non-believers that i will everyday, those that are asking me about the Lord.

WTF do I say?

To the truth is the obvious answer, but the worry is that I just may get it wrong,

and now I'm smiling for he is here with me. Knowing I had to write this to realise.
Still, there is need for more learning, more questions, and for only then can changes take place. Amen

Christ in me...

But I really want to share.

Why do I feel so exclusive?
Why is every church not the same?
As the Lord has said time ang again you choose him or the world.
If the way to God could be made simply by rule keeping, what the point of Christ?

I am told that God would not tell someone todo something that is differant to what the ISA believes.
The ISA was not God.
God is not the RSA.
Yet still there is a connection with those who refuse to accept that the Lord does not follow the law. Be it through work or leisure I am still connected...

So why can't they also breathe the same air?

God help us all.
Amen

Is this really a good example?

Not sure if I'm going over all that well. Yesterday must of been for a reason.
Depression in the workplace is not a good thing,
So Lord please show me what to do.
How do I lead?
Should they just look to you rather than me?

Please Lord
Amen

So... A new Job...

Looking at the word job I'm reminded that I do need to read Job.
I know the Lord has faith in me, I have faith in him. How could I not what he said would happen has come to pass. He said where to apply and that I would be there to bring a friend to him. Today I start although sometime (like now and yesterday) I do feel the need top talk things through with someone more experienced in the Lords way than myself. Not sure when or how that will happen. Still, I follow my Lords command and we will see what is to come.


To my Children: I love you.



Love Jesus

Thank You Lord

Thank You for your faith in me.

Lost in the Dark

So here I type with Bonnie Tyler running through my head. As usual the lyrics change to to worship. Why is it that it is only when I worship, my singing voice does not bring people screaming to thier knees in tormented pain (lol)?

Holy Spirit runs in me, no need to turn around I know you are here.
As the rain pours down, how many sins are washed away?
It seems one job has finished and now the next starts.
Guilt was admitted, for her. Is it enough?
Now guidance is needed not by force or comment but example.
You are waiting, but can I really lead him to the stream?


Lord provides and I can't help but smile, granted I'm nervous sat between two worlds, but I hear and I will not say no.


Peace be with you
Love Jesus

Grace with Me, Grace with You.

For as the son's of Abraham grew mighty nations there was still more to do. He came, saw and came again, yet still more to do. What makes you think that it ended way before you? Can you not see that through you and through me there still more to do?

Pages turn...

And on April ninth I was told that it was over.
Case closed?

Tempted to write but I await for tomorrow mourn when all will will be revealed.

Till then Amen

Two months later...

I have been arrested, in court twice and now await to be arrested again.
I have done as I have been commanded. I have done the right thing. I maybe frustrated with some people but hold no anger towards anyone and forgive them all.

My faith is stronger than ever and yet I still do not know where this road leads, I do not know why it is the established who feel they need to to persecute yet maybe they too are following their commands.

It is love that keeps us together yet that love is filled with jealousy that pulls us all apart. Some deeds can not be forgotten no matter how many years pass by.
You will need to speak up maybe now is the time let them know and free yourself for he will guide you, evermore Amen.

I am a hypocrite

I have spent the last 8 months talking to my Lord. Always learning, questioning and re-learning. Maybe I don't listen clearly, but it seems to me that when he changed me he secured my back bone. I still have a sense of moral justice. We are not to prostitute ourselves to anyone. Even loved ones. Yet we all do. As children no matter the culture we are sent to school, for the prosperity of our nation! The truth is we are sent to school so we can integrated in to the machine. Many children grow up unaware until it is to late. Once in the machine we can be used abused and manipulated for any purpose deemed fit for the number given to us at birth. It is social hierarchy that chooses this number the lowest number sit at public school enjoy Christmas in the warm, fuck their maids and torture the ponies. The higher numbers for there are many will be subject to every option open to a human being only to be told they are not good enough. How could they be they came from their parents who quite frankly were not worth the effort to excrete from Gods earth. Yet all is not lost....
For we live in lands that have time of opportunity and in these time one person can carve out there own route to riches and notoriety. In exchange all you need to do is offer up the smallest part of you. It is insignificant you do not need it! For that central core of knowledge of what is right and wrong has been chipped at since birth. As a baby you accepted discipline no matter how cruel, as a child you filled your head with what ever was put in front of you and as an adolescent the last flame was extinguished when you were offered freedom.

Yes we are tortured and it is nothing new, even proverbs recommended discipline this too was wrong, for discipline without God is a lever to vengeance. No human has the right to discipline another at least not one given by the Lord. But we accept it.
We accept many things, for we can survive, if we want more we can try and get more, we just need to offer more of us in return, and if we can not get what we want they will offer us a substitute.

As a consumer I too prostituue myself. But that is something I accept. I have been prostituted by my parents, by my educators, by my employers. We prostitute are friends and don't even notice. We expect to much and give to little, we are puppets of our own strings.

I told someont to stand up and be heard I then grew dissapointed when she felt she couldn't.
It is for me to stand up I have waited to long if the Lord has called me than it is for a reason, for I did not seek him, I am his follower and will not fall.